random(:

Mia:Don't you hate that?
Vincent:What?
Mia:Uncomfortable silences. Why do we feel it's necessary to yak about bullshit in order to be comfortable?
Vincent:I don't know. That's a good question.
Mia:Thats when you know you've found somebody special


The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds ♥


Life is a Beach. I’m just playing in the Sand.


The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return. ♥


There will always be a "lie" in believe
an "over" in lover
an "end" in friends
an "us" in trust
and an "if" in life.

TESSA???
only 4 you, baby! (:

Random Quotations i Liked:)

Warum ein Herz nur zu 60 % benutzen? Ich hoffe doch nur auf jemanden, der keine Zweifel mehr übrig lässt. Bei dem ich bleiben kann mit der Gewissheit, dass die Suche zu Ende ist. Ich finde, ich habe keine übertriebenen Ansprüche. Er muss weder bildhübsch noch schwerreich sein, er braucht keinen Adelstitel & keinen Doktor. Alles, was ich will, ist ein Mann, bei dem ich fühle: "Du bist für mich der Richtige!" (Blaue Wunder)

Die wachen Stunden meiner Tage sind in Segmente eingeteilt, die ich damit verbringe, anderer Leute Erwartungen zu erfüllen. (Meine letzte Nacht auf Erden)

Nichts tut so unendlich weh wie die Liebe, wenn sie verloren geht. (Blaue Wunder)

Die Liebe ist kompliziert, sie hat keine starren Regeln - sie kann einem geschenkt werden, man kann sie sich mit viel Zeit & harter Arbeit verdienen oder sie kann absolut, herzzerreißend & unerwidert sein. Oder ist sie einfach irgendwie stärker? Menschen können so inbrünstig hassen - ist es da einfach das andere Ende des Spektrums, dass sie auch umso inniger, heftiger & leidenschaftlicher lieben können? (Seelen)

Seelen -> english: the host.. i just love this book! i read it two times, and i would read it 100 times if i could :D

Es kommt der Tag an dem Du und Ich voreinander stehen und ich dir ins Gesicht spucke und dir das zurück gebe was du UNS angetan hast. (wahahaaaa ;) )

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baby i love you !! (:

new life waiting

i'm sorry that I’m running from something that i used to love, when i was with you.


now theres a new time, a new life waiting for me out there, which will be without the person that hurt me the most. :)


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on the 17th of september there will be a sweet sixteen party, so let's see what happens there ;)

Found it!

Finally i found that wonderful song of the t-mobile advertising:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r89ZPvXd0Wc

it's called neopolitan dreams by lisa mitchell :)
such a cute song!

Shopping Time♥

Well, yesterday i went shopping with mummy.
i needed a new pair of jeans, because my favourites are a little bit damaged since Kenya. So i cut the legs off and now they are shorties :D:D
we first went to ONLY, there i found great jeans, but they were a little bit too small and they didn't have them like i needed them :/
i also tried on a nice blouse in red-white, which looked great on me with that jeans, but i thought let's see what Vero Moda has :D
in Vero Moda i found:
A cute summer-dress
and
a jeans + a new top :)


Dress ~18€


Jeans: ~50€
Top: sorry, can't remember :D

after shopping in vero moda we didn't go to another shop, it was too hot to try on other stuff :D so we went and ate some ice-cream and then we drove home.

i'm really looking forward to tomorrow because of 2 thing.
No'1: i'm going to the hairdresser :)
No'2: NORA COMES HOME from her holiday.♥ FiNALLY!

so, see ya:)
♥

More Pictures

Sorry i can't upload the videos, i don't know why :(

but, then i'll show you some other pictures :)


early-in-the-morning-Safari♥

A Hyäne (haha i don't know how to write it:D ) eats a Gnu(the animal which was in the migration) after killing it.


we, holding a skill of.. eh.. whatever:D

The sign of trust how zebras show it. "you watch after me, i watch after you, i trust you."

okay, now i'm bored of uploading more pictures of that holiday, sorry i'm a bit stressed today.
♥

A Safari in East-Africa

2nd week.
Mondays we wanted to make the safari, so we had to fly with a little airplane to that savanna called Massai Mara. First we sat in the wrong plane :D
As soon as we sat in the right one, the pilot said: We will have two stops. i don't know who is gonna stay at the 1st stop and who will fly with us to the 2nd.
i thought it couldn't be worse than having to fly to the 2nd stop. we landed and the pilot came to us: "family Holzer?"
my mum was really happy: "YES!"
pilot: " you stay here. everybody else this is your stop"
my mum made a face, hilarious :D
so we had to fly to the next stop. it was like you fly over bumps! i hated it D:
we landed and we left the airplane. we met a women with her son (7 years) and we drove with them in a landrover to our lodge. it was really beautiful! we even had a swimming pool there ( if i had known this before, i would have taken my bikini with me -.- )
we had to sleep in a kind of a tent, but it was big and we had a real floor and beds and a bathroom, only the walls were tent-like.



it was cold at night there so we had warm-bottles in our bed which was really adorable<3
we drove to 5 safaris, one Mondays, 3 tuesdays and one Wednesdays.
it was really really beautiful!
so many different animals and i've never seen them free! we saw nearly the BIG FIVE of Kenya: Rhino, Buffalo, Lion, Elephant and Leopard
but we didn't find a leopard, but we saw a gepard with its little baby. the poor baby had only one eye left from a fight with a lion. poor baby :(
we saw many many zebras, we saw timons and pumbas (hakuna matata. <- is suaheli and comes from Kenya ;) )
We even saw the Migration! Gnus ans Zebras were in it, and it was adorable. We had a picnic in between the Migration on Wednesday because the gnus don't hurt people, they are afraid of us:D
we saw, i can say, nearly everything. i could nearly touch them (but it wasn't allowed ;) )
all i can say after this Safari is
i LOVE AFRiCA.

funny story about Pumbas:
they have a really short memory. sometimes when a lion hunts them, they forget and start grasing :D:D hilarious :D (and then the lion can easily catch them :( )

i also made videos of the big 5 but i'll post them in my next post :D









-> these were only the best. tomorrow i'm gonna upload more.
so long, ♥

African Lady is back

YES. i'm back again and all i can say is it was AMAZiNG. Such a lovely holiday!
The Beach was white & the savanna was green and also brown.
The animals were my best friends.
eh, no not really :D we had monkeys in ozr hotel, and they were at the beginning kind of cute. later then they were only annoying :D they always wantes to eat our food and they were really mad :D

i'll post the pictures in another post, coz i'm just uploading them from the camera.

yesterday evening at 9 o'clock i was at home. Finally.
We had a flight that lasted 8.30 hours and then we drove from frankfurt 1.30 hours home. i was SO happy to see my brother again, coz i really missed him.
after refreshing my make up (.. what make up?! i didn't even have makeup for the flight, not even mascara :D because i had to stand up at 5.30, that is in germany 4.30. so WHAT THE HELL I DON'T NEED MAKEUP :D:D) we went to my uncles bday until 10.30 - so it was a very long day for me.

i'll tell you more about Kenya in my post with the pictures & videos. see ya.
♥♥

Keep Marchin' On

My Life Be Like - Grits ♫
This song... with this song everything changed. No. Not everything. but something.
i'm really sorry for that, but i have to say the truth.i can't go on like THAT.
and right now i'm thinking about how to say it.. :/

&now i'm a bloody big mess inside. i'm not gonna run away, but let me go.



On friday i'll go to school for the last time. not forever, but for the next 6 weeks. SUMMER HOLIDAYS♫. I've been waiting for them for so long, and now, here they are. can't believe it. already another year over, and a lot of things have changed. Me, and also many things and people around me.
friends went. others came. some stayed.
for the ones who stayed can i say that these are my best friends. and there are many other situations when i can say that they really helped me, and they were there for me in hard times, as also in good times.
but there are also people who went, and came back. and for some reasons i'm really happy about it, coz in a creepy kind of way i wanted them to come back. and now, i'm glad to have'em here by my side.:)

well, i only wanted to say goodbye for the next 2 weeks. i'm gonna be in kenia, be on safari, chill out and go diving.
wish me fun (and good luck for tanning my skin ☺ )

♥♥

you are so wonderful BERLiN♥

Thursday.
First schoolday. i wore my grey flower-skirt from vero moda and my two tops from Only.
In de first two lessons we had English. The teacher was ok, he was a bit strict but the lessons were well. we only had double-lessons that day, it was very VERY stressful for me, coz all the lessons were held in English, whitch wasn't a problem, but i had to listen to the teachers :D

Friday Mornin'.
Only the first two lessons school. Spanish(: i understoof nearly everything, i'm proud of myself (:
then we went to a german-thing, where we made something with a poet (:
then we went to some old women with alzheimer and read the poems to them. they were SO cute!
after that, the whole school watched in de sportshall the football match. unfortunately we lost.. but.. we can't help it..:/

Monday.
We went to Charlottenburg -> i met udo walz :)
we ate in the rote 66.. -> great feeling (: like in the 5o's or sth :D
in the evening vicky and me went to the cinema. we wanted to watch "when in rome". but the manin the cinema didn't allow us to go in, coz we were only 15 and the film lasted until 10:30.. so we went to the english cinema and there we watched the same movie, only in english. nobody asked our age, great(:

Tuesday.
My last day there. We went to Schlachtensee, it was freazing :D
but i lied there in my bikini.. why not! :)
i sat in the airplane and thought: what the hell, why are we still flying?!
than the captain said: we can't go down, coz another little airplane had an accident so we can't! we have to wait half an hour.
after half an hour in the air, waiting, the captain said again: well, we still can't go down, it lasts another 1 and a half hour. i thought. NO. NO!
but then we flew to saarbrücken, where i first had to call my parents coz they didn't knew anything about that we landed in saarbrücken.
what an awful flight -.-

the next will be better.
o2. of july (:♥

A Night In The Wild Wild West

yaaa i'm back in my hometown!
it was amazing in Berlin, i really had a great time with two partys. Friday&Saturday(:
I danced a lot and i got to know a lot of new people. Nice ones, and.. some i just can't stand :D but it's always like this. Now, watch my PHOTOS!



-> Constantin, Josef, Julian, Vicky, Me and Antonia (:

-> Carla, Me and Lena(:

-> A few of the 40 people who went to the party.:)

-> Moe. Nice Guy who talked a lot in english with me:D


We went to bed at 4 in the morning and i just couldn't sleep! i woke up at 7 in the morning! i didn't sleep alone in my bed.... ;)
haha don't worry it was only a girl:D i'd never cheat on my boyfriend >.<
it was Antonia, she is such a nice person, and i danced a lot with her. she can dance SO well! wow :D and i... i just CANNOT dance, though, i danced a lot, coz it's just FUN!
Saturday, at the beginning the party was boring, later on came some people i knew, i drank a lot and so the party was also good:D the next morning vicky asked me how i got all those cigarettes i smoked saturday evening. i wondered, because i can't remember how i got them:D the only thing i knew was, all the time i had a cigarette in my hand... hah:D

Sunday. Nora B. , Ruta, Me and Vicky went to the fleatmarket, it was HUGE! then we went to a café, nice little thing(:
we ate ice cream , i bought a nice handbag from a shop called WHO KILLED BAMBI?
it's one of my favourite shops in berlin. i visited it last year too.
Ruta couldn't speak any German, so the whole day we talked in English:D




i loved Berlin. But i'm also happy about being at home again. because i missed my boyfriend and of course all of my other friends, too. i hope he and they also missed me, you never know ;)

Maybe tomorrow i'll write something about the other days in Berlin, but until then,
sleep well ;)
(and wish germany good luck in their match against Ghana. DEUTSCHLAND!)

♥

mi corazón solo late por ti

i'm gonna PARTY!
Next Friday june 18th
Motto Party : Cowboys&Indians

what am i gonna be? COWGIRL what else?!(:

i'm still searching for some cowboy boots, hope i'll find some!
all they have to do is making me look sexy:D
but maybe i can even look like this without them:D

16.o6.10 i can't WAIT!
VICK'S SWEET 16!
i Love yooouuu♥♥


picture: last year, july(:

When i get sad, I stop being sad and be awesome instead.

DAMNED WEATHER!
i want summer, what of this sentence can't be understood?
i hate rain, wind and storms. those are freakin' me out!
SUMMER?! where the hell are you?!

well, now i'm gonna stop bein' sad about the weather.
like: When i get sad, I stop being sad and be awesome instead. True story.



yesterday i went to my boyfriends' bands' gig(:
i loved seing him playing the guitar until there was a huge storm.
like i already mentioned, i hate storms:D
i went there with tessa, her parents drove us. my mommy couldn't coz it was my brothers 20. bday(:

when i came home, my whole family was sittin' on he table asking me out about my boyfriend.. i simply don't like those questions like

what are his parents like?
what do they work?
where does he live?
how did you get to know him?

my answers are always as short as they can be :D

today's weather was quite well, but tomorrow's gonna rain again. like the rest of the week. GREAT. -.-'

Life has its moments!

TODAY
My ankle has a inflammation :/ it hurts when i walk too much! NOT good..

We made a picknick today, it was such a wonderful weather! Can't believe it!
there were muffins and crisps and .. haha we also played activity :D:D i was BEST.. jk, we didn't even play till the end :D .. but i was quite well!


YESTERDAY i went to the city with tessa(:
we ate cupcakes in mcdonalds :D:D they were SO tasty!
i bought my brothers' bday present, a new Chap Stick with lemon taste and tessa bought herself two nailpolishes:)

TOMORROW's the last day of the bank holiday. my brother's turning 20 tomorrow, but my boyfriend's band has a gig.. so.. i wanna go there! but i don't now how to get there:/ my mum can't give me a drive..
i'll see what happens(:


"You are the drum in my heart beat
Bass and guitar lead
Stuck on the notes you play
My heart that you play on
Grab like a crayon
I can’t walk away"

Once upon a time.

When I was little girl,
I used to look up into the sky and make a wish,
My wish was to find someone so kind and gentle in everyway,
The kind that you wish that would always stay.





when i was like 3 or so we went to holiday. My brother was like 8 then. A boy came to him and stole his cappy. He was too afraid to go to him and take it back. Without saying a word, i went away. 10 minutes later i came back with the cappy in my hand. i gave it to my brother and everyone looked at me like i did something unbelievable:D
since today i don't know what i did to that other boy, who was like 5 or more years older than me:D
i hope that i didn't hurt him! Poor boy:D

But since today, i love my brother everyday a little more, coz he is a part of me. and he will forever be!
i know, i can really be lucky to have HiM as my brother. i know it could have also come different.
But that's another story.

what's the news?

Saturday:


Tessa:* pee in the woods only with you ;)
:D:D

Tuesday, shopping with Nora(:
we went to Lung Fung to have some Lunch, my fortune cookie told me:
"Make a perfect impression and get everything you want" (:



skirt by Vero Moda
tops by Only


"So push me against the wall and kiss me like you mean it. (: xx"

"i said i love you, so trust me i do!"

addiction!

I just looove the vampire diaries :D
it's not on pro7 anymore, so i watch it on youtube-> megavideo.
but today was the last episode from season 1 .. and i can't wait to see the next episode. the one guy in there is so hot :D he plays the bad one but at the moment he is like changing into one of the good ones. i can't wait, i can't wait, i can't wait! :D:D



On saturday i went to cinema with some friends of mine, we watched "Das Leuchten der Stille" (Dear John) . another movie with a hot guy :D
but i think it wasn't the best film i've ever seen like some other people do. the dad of the hot guy was kind of cute (: he was old and had autism. i felt so sorry for him. at the end of the film he even died. every sunday he cooked lasagne and on saturdays he made meat loaf.
the love story of the two leading actors was soo cute! but most of the film i had to laugh, not because of the film :D
but good thing: i didn't have to cry! what a miracle.. i even cried in zweiohrküken at the end when Ludo wrote that lovely letter to anna..

well, in the preview i heard of a film i HAVE to watch!
it's called kiss and kill and it's with ashton kutcher. Hottie(:

and now i'm looking forward to the next bank holiday(:

bank holiday weekend(:

Guess who made this! Yea, it was me. All alone :D i'm very proud of myself that it looks SO good.. because i made some small mistakes :D .. but not so bad, you can eat it! it's even almost empty(: it doesn't have a name. so i just call it, chocolate-stracciatella-strawberry-tart. next time i will be creative and i will make out a better name:D
well, since yesterday i already have weekend..! Yesterday was fathersday, i gave mine a bottle of wine, he loves wine:D later that day i went to my boyfriend's house(: we made whole 3 pictures, but i really don't like them at all. i look stupid:D
you know what? i won in billards against him:D. no it was no luck, it was pure ability of course. ;)
yesterday evening an old friend wrote me on icq. i was surprised coz we didn't talk to each other for 6 months. i remembered that he promised me to take me on a short trip with his scooter, in may (it's may now.. :D) but i think he doesn't remember. but doesn't matter. I'm glad we wrote a bit with each other(: it was nice to hear from him again. we talked a bit about his girlfriend and about my boyfriend, about shisha and stuff:D nothing special, coz my dad came at half past 10 in my yellow room and said: shut your computers down, i wanna go to bed.
he is not so lucky to have a free day today :P but anyway.. i watched germanys next topmodel till the end and somehow i also felt tired.
when i woke up this morning everything was quiet in our house. i was wondering and went down to the kitchen. guess what. my mum wrote me a letter. let's check if you know what she meant:




what do you think? (:
:D:D:D

lovely day(:

yesterday my mobile came at 3:00 pm with DHL .. oh my god i was so excited! i love this little piece of plastic!
my dad took me to pratiker, to carry all the things for him ._. .. or just because he didn't want to go alone there :D my mum never goes to Praktiker, she hates the staff :D
but yea.. later me and my parents went to videototal in Neunkirchen to borrow some dvds.. they wanted them for yesterday evening, and i for today!.. coz today my boyfriend came to my house (: it was a bit weird introducing him to my parents.. coz i think my parents are awkward :D:D not in the bad way.. but they are sometimes pretty annoying and stuff.. although today was great! i was happy seeing him today(: the dvd we watched was.. well.. not the best choice :D but, next time i'll choose a better movie :D or.. he'll choose ;) i showed him my house, he met my brother.. i think my brother liked him ;D that's a good sign (: coz he really didn't like Lars.. what i understand now.. he wasn't one of my best choices :D:D
i'm very looking forward to seing him again :D .. well.. he just left 20 minutes ago, but i already kind of miss him! we talked a lot and - needless to say, i showed him my new mobile ;D
an hour ago or so a friend of my family came with his new car, a yellow lamborghini *_* WHAT A CAR! i took a seat behind the steering-wheel .. gorgeous feeling! that friend only bought it like a toy.. i mean.. i ALSO WANT SUCH A TOY :D maybe soon..;)

yesterday i recognized how much i miss my best friend.. we argued, and somehow i don't think it will be better soon.. :/ but i need to come along with it.

let's take a look at my sweetheart.. no sorry, not my boyfriend, my mobile :D
i forgot to take pictures with HiM.. what i really wanted to NOT forget,.. but, well, i can't help it :D next time. so LOOK:
http://www.cell-phone-web.com/uploads/allimg/090530/18485912.jpg

totally fell in Love!

Well, this is my first insertion to this blog. I came here for Tessa, or how she is called here: tessathefirst (: she is such a great person, i really like her! so i thought, why not be a follower of her blog (;

Today:
i totally fell in Love! don't ask with who! ask with what. i went shopping with my dad to buy my mum a rose for tomorrow. i went to tamaris and saw THEM! it was love at first sight :D
then H&M .. wow.. i've never seen such a beautiful dress that goes with me so perfect! so my dady bought it for me that i can wear it at the wedding of my cousin. she'll marry in august... but the dress.. i just love it! how can something be SO beautiful! i showed it to my mum.. she: WHAT A COLOUR!
waah i can't tell how happy i am at the moment (:



Dress: 24,99€ H&M
Shoes: 49,99€ Tamaris

that was it for now(: